I crapped my pants twice during this chit, and apparently, it ain't over. No shame, it is not like we want to do it. You are among friends.
The last one is hardest going in emotionally, for me it was. I try not to worry about after tx.....but do also wonder what will keep this chit away?
Today so far is ok but it is early. Yesterday was an emotional mess, restless, GI issues, blech. Keep dreaming of my surgery and just cannot wrap my head around it even now. Everyone tells me the bmx is nothing compared to recon....am having that delayed so just a bmx for me now, no TEs til after rads. Sorry to ramble but my brain is all over today.