Friday, October 3, 2014

October 3, 2014-Rads and me, part one

Was told right away that I need radiation too and am dreading it. However, I am not so scared any more and sort of want them to zap the crap out of any remaining bad cells. I think that chemo and surgery may be the worst of it. 


Finally said the words "I have breast cancer" out loud. It still seems unreal. My counselor says it takes at least ONE YEAR to accept the dx, and so we have had no time to adjust. Unable to rally when I am feeling horrid. Remembering chemo will be over soon and on to the next phase, which is sure to suck in different ways. So. Trying to look past chemo but truly do dread the remainder of it.